New blog

I have been keeping a weblog of our bike rides.  You can find it here.  It is quite dull, unless you like to ride.  Bill has consented to be a guest journalist from time to time, so that should be worth a good laugh!

We are busy with year end stuff here in regards to school and baseball, so life at our house is chaotic.  Not to mention I hosted a Sip and See for 3 of my friends who had babies within 2 weeks of each other.  It was fun, but exhausting.

I am feeling a bit reclusive and agitated lately.  I know it is my PMDD rearing its ugly head.  I tend to feel very sensitive, paranoid and just plan bitchy.  Also, I tend to get standoffish with my friends.  During this PMDD fun, I just can’t handle all the "closeness" that can be a part of our group.  Too much "assvice" from people in regards to things such as breastfeeding my daughter still.  This was a topic last night that one friend thought that she should lecture me on, unsolicited.  You know, I listened to statements made that included "She doesn’t need it anymore"  and "It is more for you than for her" and my favorite, which was delivered to me last night as Mia tugged on my shirt to let me know she was tired (9pm) and ready to nurse to sleep, "If she can ask for it, then she is too old to be nursing".   I actually wept when everyone left.  These are supposed to be my friends.  I just don’t know what to say to these people anymore to shut them up for good.  It hurts so bad that I am being judged for doing what I consider a loving thing for my daughter. 

So, I end up backing away and needing my space. 

I will post more when this wave of PMDD passes.