This month….
marks that it has been 4 years since my first miscarriage. The miscarriage that threw me unwillingly into the land of loss. The beginning of 18 months of sorrow, pain and spirtitual growth. The journey that culminated in the joy of Mia’s birth.
I would miscarry 4 times in 9 months…..and again 2 months ago, before Christmas (a loss I am not at all ready to face or discuss much).
To always remember the losses that we suffered, I planted 4 rose bushes. They are blooming now, and the petals fall silently to the ground when the flowers wilt.
That picture really depicts for me the silent suffering. The bright mark each one leaves, and the feeling of barrenness you associate with your womb, as it fails you again and again and again and again……..and more recently, again.
It also reminds me that even sorrow has a bright side, and that even the most bleak backdrop can be a canvas for something extraordinarily beautiful.
Big hugs. We had our first and so far only miscarriage a little over a year ago. There’s just nothing that prepares you. Nothing. I like your idea of a rose bush memorial.
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I feel your pain,
Karen
My husband and I have created a “Grammy’s Garden” in one corner of our backyard. This is my special place where I have placed mementoes from my Mom and Grandma’s yard and special plants that were given to me when they passed. An area where things live on remind us of the continuity of life and yet give us a wonderful place to reflect and remember.
Wishing you peace and comfort,
Sue
I’m sorry for your losses.
What a great idea to memorilize them like that
My husband and I do nothing
but I wish we did
(he asked me if i was going crazy because i was still heavily mourning *gasp* THREE whole days after losing our baby, I took the next flight out to be with my mom, a more sympathetic person!)
Oh, I am sorry Sandy! When did you experience your loss? It is so hard, and I am glad you found comfort with your mom.
And yes, the some men just don’t get it. The first time, like your husband, Bill just was unable to understand what I needed or what I was going through. After I lost the 3rd, he was there for me 100%. It took some practice I guess.
Sue, your garden area sounds so lovely!
Belinda, I am so sorry for your loss. You are right, nothing prepares you for it.
Thanks for the hugs Karen. You know exactely what I mean, for sure. I am holding Mia tight this month!
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