Warning: You will not be getting funny today from me. If you want funny, you must go here. Be sure and wear a Depends.
What I know that I didn’t know last night:
-the stroke is in the white matter of his brain
-my 48yo husband has 36% chance of having a major stroke in the next 30 days or so.
-he has mild atheriosclerosis (fuck spelling)
-I have used the word fuck more times in the last 48 hours than I have in my entire lifetime. I apologize up front, as I know this is as offensive to some readers, as it is to me. But I am just barely hanging on here, and it keeps flying out. So there. Fuck.
-he is on 162mg 325mg of aspirin a day
-he started Crestor, 5mg/day
-the prognosis is good in the beginning, but long term is not.
-Bill is the calmest person in the word. We need to bottle whatever the hell it is inside of him and sell it as an anxiety treatment. We would make a fortune.
-he is also dragging his right foot, bumping into things, and drooling…all in an effort to make me laugh. It works sometimes, but last night it did not.
He went on to work this morning, which is a good thing, as I would imagine that it would be a bit unnerving if you had just had a stroke, and your wife was crying everytime she looked at you.
My life would have no meaning if something happened to him. There. I said it. I love my children, and I know they would give me purpose, but Bill is a part of me.
If he died, I would be half of a person. I would die of heartbreak.
**This just in…..my doctor, the wonderful Dr. Tim, who I love to death, is taking the bull by the horns and has pulled some strings and got Bill in to a fantastic cardiologist….right now. So, he is in route as I speak.
Thank you all for your well wishes, concern and prayers. I just can’t concentrate and pray right now, so you are doing it for me. Okay?
Ohhhh Jody my preys are with you sweetie …dang i miss one day and bam …have a bladder infection but letsd get off me and on Been gone yesterday have a bladder infection but off of me and on to the hubby my preys are with him Jody
I’ve felt the same way the last couple days about not being
able to concentrate enough to pray. Last night I gave my baby
a double dose of medicine accidentally. She is OK, thank God.
But it was just brainless of me. Sigh.
Stress does a job on ya doesn’t it? I think this is the kind
of time when the Holy Spirit intercedes for
us. Praying for your sweetie.
Hugs
Mary
I think all we can say to really help you right now is that you are in our prayers.
I understand your feelings of being lost without your husband. I so tend to take my husband for granted but I would struggle mightily to go on without him.
Jody,
Continuing prayers to comfort you and for Bill’s health. Be strong for your children. I know that’s easier said than done, but children can sense our anxieties.
(and I totally understand yours as I would be lost without my Bill)
((hugs))
Sue
You have no idea who I am, but I’ve recently started reading your blog, and just wanted to send you lots of good wishes. You’ll be in my thoughts.
I will continue to keep Bill & your family in my prayers. My husband had a stroke
when he was 12-13 due to a serious motor bike accident. I didn’t know him
then, but it scares me to this day that it could happen again.
I will be praying for you.
Oh no! I’m saying a prayer right now.
(((hugs))) You are all in my prayers.
That is some freaky shit. I’m aching for you right now. Prayers are being sent your way.
Praying here, for all of you.
(((hugs Jody)))