Up and down
Butterflies in my stomach. Adrenaline. Sinking feelings.
If I didnt know any better, I would have to say I was on a roller coaster ride at Disney World.
We have good days and bad days. Friday was a great one. Bill felt better, the tingling was gone, and all he was left with was a slight heavy feeling in his right side. One fine day, for sure!
approach the lift hill, and begin slow ascent to the top of the track after 2 weeks of back to back loops
Saturday sucked. Bill called me from work and said he did not feel well. I asked what was wrong and he said “My head doesn’t feel right. I’ll talk to you when I get home” and we got off the phone. I looked at the clock and it read 10:30. I had to wait almost 2 hours to find out what the hell was wrong. I worked myself up into a complete panic.
find myself gazing down, as the car gains acceleration and plunges me into the double dip from hell
When he came home he said he just felt fatigued. We spent a quiet day at home. Napping and lounging. That evening we drank a little beer.
Sunday he felt way better and we had a great day. We even went to the pool and he swam with the kids. Then we had a drink in the evening. We joked about becoming alcoholics.
the cart slows and continues on a flat track
This morning he told me that Saturday he just felt weird in his head and right leg….like they were not coordinating together. He could walk fine, it just felt weird and disjointed.
the cart flings itself into a monster looping corkscrew, and the G-Force leaves me stunned
I called him at work just a few minutes ago, and he said that today he feels much better.
clack clack clack clack…. the chain pulls the car up the track to set it up for another free fall….clack clack clack clack
Up and down, round and round. Every turn leaves my stomach suspended high above me. Then it catches up with me and I can stop holding my breath.
Right now, I can breathe again.
Hugs to you! I hate that up and down feeling. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers.
While I love real roller coasters and certainly can do without emotional ones. I hope the doctors have given you guidelines on at what point you need to seek medical attention for him again. I would be so confused all the time in your shoes.
((HUG)) I hope your mother’s day was pleasant in other ways.
And a happy mother’s day to you. Hope the turbulance ends soon.
Jodi,
Sending prayers that your life gets on more of an even keel very soon.
Jody my preys are with you and the hubby…I am sending you BIG HUGS!!!!