This is me

This is me

A rare picture of me.  I had just returned from a run, and am looking pretty sweaty and shabby.  I have 8 more pounds to go to finish my weight loss, but I am feeling like my old self again.  Running every day, and am training for a 1/2 marathon this October.  This is me.  I can’t  just go out and get some exercise.  It has to be a suffer-fest.  I just have to be out there, going with the moment.  Everything I do is pushed to extreme.  Running when it is 97 degrees.  i am insane.  My runs are not exercise, they are about survival.  Survival of my body and mind.  To push myself to the edge.  I need that.  I can’t explain it, but I just do.

This isn’t just about finishing a race.  It is about the journey getting there.  The whole journey.  The one in which I found myself again…….and it feels so good.