All that I am, All that I ever was
We’ll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don’t need
Anything
Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don’t quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
they’re not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we’re told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that’s bursting into life
Let’s waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we’re told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that’s bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they’re all I can see
I don’t know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
-Snow Patrol
Sometimes when I speak it all comes out wrong. Sometimes it just seems impossible to tell someone what is in that complicated brain that sits up on my shoulders. How do you put emotion into word? I can’t. I just can’t.
I can’t convey to my friends back home why we left. I can’t explain to anyone here at the coast why I won’t let them in, why I have become an island…..why my family has become an island. I can’t even convey it to myself.
It hurts that there are some people who are still mad bewildered/upset with us. It hurts that they don’t understand.
I can’t use words to make it simple for everyone. It hurts too much to try.
I can use someone elses though.
I can take those words and copy them here, and maybe someone will read them and understand. Maybe someone will grasp how much I love that man.
Everything else in my life pales in comparison to my family.
I will never look back on this time in my life and feel regret for making my husband a priority.
I will never regret turning my back on everything else outside of my family.
I know one thing. I never in a million years knew that I could love someone this much…..that I could lose myself in them.
The line is blurred as to where I end and where he starts.
And I have to tell you, I would go to hell and back with him……coming here was easy.
Fantastic photo. Well written words. And yet, at some point don’t you think you’ll want to let someone else in? I was an island for far too long and it’s lonely – even with a close family.
Jody says: You are correct young lady! In fact, I am going to a little luncheon with a new friend I made here. She is awesome, and I am looking forward to it.
So beautiful and I get it. But perhaps, some time, could us little rowboats come and dock at the island for a bit?
Jody: Come aboard!
Sorry some are giving you a hard time. Ya’ gotta do, etc. ((Hugs))
Jody: Oh no. No one is giving us a hard time. I know there are a few who are still bewildered and hurt, but no one is giving us a hard time. Many of my friends back home have been simply wonderful, and I truly should focus on that because I am so grateful…..but some have pretty much ignored us and when I am in a melancholy mood like this morning, it brings me down.
Dang
I’m sorry some are giving you a hard time. And actually *mad at you* for following your bliss!? I followed my husband’s dream of chucking it all and I LOVE the change it produced in me. We all changed, for the better, so much so that I’d hate to think of who’d we be today if we had stayed in the Phx suburbs. shutter. We learn and grow from change, they could probably benefit form a little change themselves. 
Hope today’s a brighter day! {{{{Jody}}}
Peace, Vicki
jody says: Hi Vicki. See, my words are so vague. No one is giving us a hard time. A few are just plain ignoring us, and that makes me feel bad. I just was having a whiney baby morning. And like you, I am so grateful for following our dreams..
Well I know that in a great marriage that is what it is all about, sacrafice. It only matters to you and your husband and kids. If people don’t get it thats ok. You can be on an island just include others in it there, you can have it all, just reach for it.
When I come in April Iam looking you up and we will definately do lunch!
Love that song.
I can’t say I know where you (and your family) are at right now, but I know there are times when I just need to get away from everyone else temporarily.
I understand. I got burned by friends, and am now really freaked out to make new ones. But our family is an island that I love.
You are so well-spoken about your love for Bill. I get tears in my eyes each time I read about it. After a scare like yours, I’d do anything and everything.
You always need to do what is best and right for your family. Your #1 choice was your family…that always speaks for itself.
The depth of meaning and feeling rings loud and clear in all your posts.
Can I just say how awesome it is to read a blog written by someone who loves her husband so deeply? I love to read about women loving on their hubbies.