and baby makes 6!

Saturday kicked up some great surf for us here at the coast. Too bad for me that I have been hacking and coughing my brains out for a week now, and was not up to immersing my body in 53 degrees of salt water on a cloudy day with temps in the 50′s as well [...]

The first Christmas that we spent together, Billy set the standard tradition. We were in Fort Worth, and it was the second time for him to meet my parents. As quiet as he is, I imagine he was a bit overwhelmed with the Italian loudness and fun. Christmas Eve at my parents house means an [...]

For the last few months Bill and I have been able to take an evening to ourselves each month. The babysitting situation is premo….it only costs $15 for the entire evening. The cost of finding a baby sitter was what had kept Bill us from wanting to do it more than, say, once a year. [...]

It has been a very long time since Bill and I had time alone together. I really miss his 6 days off. If I were to say what the biggest adjustment with our move has been for me, it would be Bill changing jobs, hands down. He has a great job. We are both thrilled [...]

As usual, I could see Bill ahead of me, his legs moving smoothly and strongly. We were on a bike ride and it was a beautiful day. Not a bright,sunny, blue skies burning kind of beautiful. It was actually cloudy, hot and muggy. Texas coast muggy. The beauty was in how vivid all the colors [...]

While on a bike ride together… me: I am so loving this! Bill: Loving what? me: This being together stuff. Bill: Oh me: So, is this like, more important to me than you? Bill: What do you mean? How would I gauge that? me: Well, okay, then I will re-phrase…How important to you is it [...]

Not that kind of screwdriver…getcha mind outa the gutta and read on. My whole life I have been very independant. Fiercly so at that. I did everything myself, and even though my brother was 5 years older than myself, I went everywhere with him. It drove my mother up the wall. All she had to [...]

Yesterday my husband put on a pair of scrubs. He went with my friend the anesthesiologist to the hospital to intubate people. If you are the primary practitioner in an ER, you must be able to intubate. Airways are very, very important and must be kept open….always remember; airway, airway, airway. Learning to intubate on [...]

Yesterday evening, we got a babysitter and went for a bike ride. This was the first time I have ridden since the end of April. I don’t feel out of shape, as we have been surfing so much, but I asked Bill to be kind to me none-the-less. He has been riding at least 3x [...]

I love listening to good music. Be it anything from Pachabel to Green Day, if it inspires me or brings out emotion, I have it in my CD player. Sometimes I listen to a song, and the words are so perfect, they fit my feelings to a tee. I wish so much that I could [...]

I am beat. Do you mind some bullet points? Bill finally allowed me to get him to a specialist for a second opinion. He had no choice. It was either go to the doctor, or die from the brain trauma that I was inflicting on him with my constant crying and pleading. That and having [...]

Butterflies in my stomach. Adrenaline. Sinking feelings. If I didnt know any better, I would have to say I was on a roller coaster ride at Disney World. We have good days and bad days. Friday was a great one. Bill felt better, the tingling was gone, and all he was left with was a [...]

Because I am still fatigued from my illness, and just too durn lazy, I am cutting and pasting something I wrote in an e-mail to a friend. Things are good. “Bill went to a neurologist on Tuesday, and to make a long story short, it was a waste of time. He told Bill that the [...]

Bill had a visit to the cardiologist on Thursday. He had an echocariogram, a stress test, and this morning a doppler of his carotid arteries……all of which where normal. Officially. At this moment, he is seeing a neurologist. I was supposed to go to this appointment….instead, here I sit, with Mia in my lap running [...]

7:00am Me: How do you feel honey?” Bill: “Buwa bu, na gee ni”. 9:00am Call to Bill at office: Me: “You feeling okay?” Bill: “Well, I am not dead yet.” 11:00am Me: “How are you feeling?” Bill: “How are you feeling?” 12:30pm Calling from the car after picking up his MRI films in another town. [...]

I think I am officially depressed. Yesterday was franitc and crazy. Today I just feel blah. This morning I asked Bill if he was having any other symptoms, other than the tingling, and he replied “Just a very, very slight headache above my right eye”. I look at him and see a walking time bomb. [...]

Warning: You will not be getting funny today from me. If you want funny, you must go here. Be sure and wear a Depends. What I know that I didn’t know last night: -the stroke is in the white matter of his brain -my 48yo husband has 36% chance of having a major stroke in [...]

It is not MS………………my husband had a stroke. And I quote the radiologist: “There is a subcentimeter lacunar infarct in the lateral posterior portion of the right centrum semiovale.” I don’t know enough to elaborate on it. I had literally 2 minutes with my husband before he had to wisk one of the boys off [...]

If you think someone could possibly have a blocked artery, a bulging aneurysm, or MS, and to see such pathology one would need to do a CONTRAST (where they inject dye into the vein) MRI, do you think that MAYBE you might want to give the FLIPPIN’ patient the MOTHER FLOCKING DYE?????????????? That is all.

Wishfully spoken “maybe nothing” Wish granted Prayer answered. Thank God. The last 24 hours have literally killed me. As you read, Bill approached me Monday and told me his symptoms and how concerned he was about them. He got right in that morning with Dr. R, and an MRI was ordered. The problem was that [...]

Weekend away Aging mother Sweet Priceless Return home Husband greeting Wonderful evening Morning comes Cappucino steaming Across the table Glasses off Bomb dropped Eyes locked Sinking stomach Soft touch Symptoms given Tingling skin Hemiparesthesia Face Arm Torso Leg Doctor visit Waiting waiting Phone ringing Sweet voice in my ear Lunch time Curled up Mouse-like Strong [...]

I would like to ask each of you to do something for me. It is simple and only good can come from it. Tell your husband you love him, right now. Call him on the phone, drive up to his office and have lunch with him, seek him out and specifically tell him how much [...]